The last few weeks have been pretty hard. I'm tired. I don't have enough hands, or hours, or degrees of sanity. I want sleep and healthy food and a skinny body and a clean house and a date with my husband and kids that are happy and healthy and sleeping through the night. I know that will all come in time (maybe not the skinny body), but for now, just thinking of trying to go grocery shopping with three kids sends me into despair. I'm going to spend today thinking of ways to step away from the cliff. Wish me luck.